Showing posts with label free will. Show all posts
Showing posts with label free will. Show all posts

Saturday, September 4, 2021

Work Life: (Exempt) My Personal Advice to Avoid These Steps on Your Yearly/Periodic Review or Interview or Status Update or Self-Evaluations

I have been working professionally for 15+ years, and I have coached quite a few colleagues and friends what I have learned the hard-way. Many who struggled with promotions or raises have found success with my suggestions.

For this article, I'm going to use a scale of 1-5. 5: Beyond expectation; 4: Meeting expectation; 3: Sometimes expectation; 2: Well below expectation, possible suspension; 1: Likely to get fired soon. Some companies have more points; some put different names to them; some also in reverse order. In my personal opinion, they all basically boil down to this type of model based on the results of my reviews.

This is also primarily for paying jobs where the work is not very well defined (exempt, no overtime pay) versus most hourly jobs (non-exempt). My experience is also wholly in the white-collared world. This may also work for blue-collared work too.

Give Yourself Full Score if You Do Not Know Your Benchmark

If you do not know your benchmark for scoring, give yourself the full score even if you believe that you deserve a 3 or even a 2. Force your employer to explain to you why you do not deserve a 5. 

The only exception to this is if your employer already gives you feedback on a regular basis. In that case, make sure that you fully understand what is being asked. You should make sure that you do understand when you receive those feedbacks. But if it is too late to fill in your self-eval, then put in a higher score. Don't put it too high as you may appear that you didn't get anything out of your regular reviews.

I have also never experienced nor heard anyone experience any negative effects of giving themselves a 5 even if it is obviously not a 5 work. Still use some judgment on whether your manager is the type to take offense. My work has always been 4-5. I do get some 3s but they are primarily for skills I do not have the opportunity to do. The most common one is improving company core values. Which I believe they default for everyone. But I still give myself a 5 just to hear my manager tell me that it is basically defaulted to 3 for everyone. This is when you learn this is whole exercise is quite pointless. But since it is required, I suggest everyone to make use of this to get as much information as they can from it.

Do not mistake that the score is for you to guess what you think the company thinks of you. This is what you think of yourself. If you believe you meeting expectation, then give yourself that score.

The main reason for this is because most managers also have no clue. Your problem is if you give yourself a 3 and a non-deserving person gives himself a 4, then you lose out. The manager won't even look or reconsider. You are automatically filtered out. HR has even less clue. Most do not even know your name.

Last is that it may even be potential that your work is a 5 but you don't know it! Maybe you thought all that training was normal, but you don't know that you produced the best candidates. Another scenario is that your group outperforms another group. You may be average in your group but still outperform another group top performer. As mentioned earlier, let the company tell you why you don't deserve it because they will happily let you keep your 4 even if they believe you deserve a 5 or even a 5+ because 4 is cheaper for them. 

Keep Track of Your Own Activities

Keep track of as many activities as you can do without impacting your work, because you are bound to forget them by review time. By activities, I do not mean just big projects. I mean meetings you hosted, important meetings you attended, any exceptions to your normal role, people who trained (or partially trained) even if it was only 30 minutes, documentations created. Many people I have coached assume these are small tasks so they do not record these information.

The problem is that some of these small things amount to big things. The difficulty of tracking these is that it is too late by the time it becomes a big thing. For example, I had to do a presentation on our internal processes. Managers loved it and had me present more. My roles have been development or process management, and no one else in my role or level presented. So by the time I had my review, I can only said that I spent significant amount of time training. Which they down-played because what is "significant"? When I started tracking numbers, this became much easier to present and leverage myself to my needs.

Ultimately, you are trying to justify your time. There is approximately 2000 (50 weeks of 40 hours) hours of full-time work in a year.

Also see Give Managers Ammunition.

Give Managers Ammunition

Most managers have absolutely no idea about your quality of work. A decent one will at least vaguely know if you are better than someone else. If you think it is difficult to give yourself a number score, imagine having to give a number score to someone else?

So help your manager fight for you. This is where your self-evaluation and your list comes in handy.

In reality, most managers don't know what to do. So it makes it easier for your manager to stand out if you give him some information that helps him leverage for you.

Start with not lowering your score. If you give yourself a 4 but in reality you are a 5, it is an uphill battle for your manager to explain why you should be a 5 when you gave yourself a 4. The manager also plays a similar game with their managers. Not all managers know where they stand among their peers either so you may be shafted for having a 4 in an outstanding team versus a 5 in an underperforming team. At least with 5's, the discussion can be had.

When that discussion can be had, it is typically pretty easy for managers to impress too with data. For example, 2000 promotions may be normal for me but that sounds impressive to upper management. Especially if a peer group does not provide any numbers at all. 2000 can be a crappy number in reality, but the perception is that my manager appears more prepared. The more data, the harder it is for a competing manager to leverage the benefits. Number of resolved tickets, requests, time-to-completion.

As I have repeated a couple times, this can only be done if that information is provided.

Not Everything Needs to be Monetary Compensation

With large corporations there are limits to a raise, the timing may not be correct. With small companies, they may not have the funds. Or your manager may be weak in fighting for your values.

Negotiate training time, bigger budget (or get a budget) to purchase work related products or software, promotion in name only (even just a jr to sr, or level 1 to level 2; make up a new position if one doesn't exist... this is free to the company), etc.

These are investments that you can use in the future when money becomes more available (whether that money comes from your current employer or future employer). If current employer does not honor your value, then other companies can at least justify the higher salary.

Don't Work Overtime Except for Exceptional Reasons

At least start reducing your overtime hours. You will never be able to reduce your hours until you decide to. Do not wait until you have a new member in your team.

Why? The reason is quite simpler than you think. No one tracks the hours of salaried employees. Most managers barely know the hours. Even if they do, most likely they are also working overtime. Because no one knows, upper management only compares your work to the calendar.

So let us say that you did 100 tickets over 80 hour work week. Because upper management don't know the hours, to them that is 100 tickets per week. If they hire a new person and assume that person is your clone, if you both work 40 hours, you still get 100 tickets completed. To upper management, they do not understand because now you are completing the same amount of work for the double the cost.

Along similar reasoning, if you were given a raise for working 80 hours and you are now working 40 hours, then upper management cannot justify your salary. So it is important that salary is in-line with your base hours otherwise it will be very difficult to ever return to normal hours.

If you are already doing extreme overtime, the path of least resistance is to slowly reduce your hours and let things fail. This requires you to set the proper expectations and "upset" some people.

Business is not perfect so some overtime is acceptable if it is seen as an exception. Once that overtime becomes a household name, then things get more complicated. Even reducing salary is more complicated than you'd think.

Overall, personally, I think it is good for both company and employees that expectations are set properly for the long-term. This is a difficult track because most managers do not know how to overlook short-term gains over long-term gains but it kind of starts with a person. "It's all business" will dictate that if someone is willing to put themselves in position to do more work for same or less pay, they will continue to exploit it.

This was a long round-about way of saying to avoid using overtime as a reason to get a promotion or a raise. Use overtime to get a bonus or other one-time benefits so that it is not tied to your base work. Once it is tied to your base pay then you will have a difficult time separating the two if you ever wish to work normal hours again.

Exception is if you plan to continue to work overtime for the remainder of your tenure of that job. I specifically use job and not employer is because one of the easier methods to get out of the downward spiral is to apply for a new role. The farther the role is from the original, the easier to start over.

Thursday, June 15, 2017

My struggles with overeating

For those who is reading my blog for the first time, I do exercise quite regularly but still cannot lose weight or yo-yo when I lose significant amount. I am not fond of sharing my personal health experiences, but I do wish to help others and I found it helpful to know that other people have struggled and overcame their struggles.

I say that I exercise regularly, but I do go in slumps. In the big picture, I typically do the worst when I am at a new job because I overwork, eat poorly, eat more frequently, don't exercise, and sleep less. I get too tunnel-visioned in learning as much as I can in as short period of time. I do this rather successfully at the expense of my health.

I also do very, very well when I do not work. I lost 30 pounds in a summer when I was volunteering. I lose a lot of weight when I am between jobs. Basically, I do well when I just focus my attention at one particular lifestyle.

Lately, I have been doing better at balancing these two. Unfortunately, I still have a lot of bad habits. Eat a lot and frequently. I know it, but it is still hard to avoid it. No matter how much I tell myself... I could be telling myself the entire day that I should stop late night eating, I will still waver hard and indulge..... even when I wasn't even hungry.

I do not know why. But once it is late, I just want to eat. By this point, I have already eaten the usual 3 meals. I am even worse when I actually feel hungry. This has a multi-part problem. First, I don't cook frequently so I cook an entire week's worth of food over the weekend. Second, I do not like to waste food (in a broader view, I do not like wasting in general). Third, when I do something I go all the way. Fourth through to infinite, I am pretty bad to almost all bad eating habits except for sweets. 

I have never been much for candy, cakes, ice cream... unless they are the only available edible foods which I practice eat them more like a meal than a snack. I also do not have a problem with snacking, but I like snack foods. So if I am hungry, I can down a bag of potato chips. In between meals, I have no problems avoiding it. Once I am hungry and I eat one chip... the bag will basically be consumed within minutes.

So if there is food around, I will want to "finish" it even if I am full. I don't like leftovers, so I will eat it all. Even if I am stuffed, I will finish off the food. Because I don't buy candy or snacks, I am at least able to avoid very unhealthy foods. When I host parties and have leftover snacks... sadly I will eat them. To avoid this, I have been giving them away as guests leave or bring them to the office.

But easily my one biggest issue is late night eating...

I eat an extra late night meal. This is so hard and no amount of logic can explain why I still want to eat... except out of habit. I will look into every nook and cranny for some resemblance of food that needs to be consumed and make-up some excuse that it needs to be done before it expires. Even to this day, I am staring at the food and practically yelling at myself (or the food) that I should not eat... I will not eat it.... over and over.

I do not know what triggered the change, but in the last week, I have actually been able to put the food back into the fridge and just not eat it. And like that, I have been able to lose 1-2 pounds a day. It does not even matter if I ate unhealthy (fried chicken, fries, etc.). I am not saying that I should be eating it, but this just shows how unhealthy late night eating has been for me. I am already down 8 pounds in the last week. (Just for some reference to those who is trying to lose weight, I should weigh around 170 and currently 250 at the start of losing... so don't be thinking you'll lose a pound if you are already at average weight.)

Even now as I write this post, I still have the urge. It has become literally to the point of my left arm pulling my right arm away. So, I really hope anyone who is trying to lose weight that you are not alone in your struggle. It is hard... and sometimes there really is no good explanation except purely will-power to make a change in one's life. So, keep fighting even if you fail. 

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Life: Randomness in terms of free will, destiny, and fate (Take 7 of infinite)

For me, solving randomness is the ultimate way to cut corners in life and perhaps the only way to "solve" life. Because the more I think about it, the more I need to know. At some point, my mind has to contain more atoms to understand a single atom thus it is an impossibility to solve life through brute force. The only alternative is to truly become one with the world which I'll leave for another topic which I also do not think is solvable via the conscious mind.

Back to randomness... I like using casino games to visualize the unknown and the known. The games typically have simple rules yet works with a finite set of known values. For example, a typical poker deck has 52 cards, 13 cards of 4 different suits. Once I shuffle the deck, there is a 1 in 52 chance I will guess the card on top correctly. And no matter how much I try to make a better educated guess, the known world already knows what the top card is.

So me guessing is like free-will. I use only a limited set of knowledge to figure out what the card is. Any gambler would also be exercising their free-will to determine the card for they could potentially choose any card. But the dealer who has seen the top card, he know longer has free-will to guess the card because he already knows it.

My choice is like fate. Through whatever psychological explanation of seeing a lot of a certain number or associated colors or the proximity of the full moon, there really was only one choice I would have made. In other words... if you knew exactly how my brain works, you would have known my answer before I knew my answer.

Likewise, the top card was fated to be at the top. The deck was shuffled precisely so that specific card would end up at the top even though it was not the intention of the dealer. Thus a machine that can watch the cards or calculate how the deck was shuffled, it had not free-will in knowing what the top card is. Also, the security guard watching the game on video in slow-motion also has no free-will because he now knows what the card is.

Although destiny is often used interchangeably with fate, I will use it as a predetermined result. In other words if I was destined to guess the card correctly, the top card is not known. The top card will be whatever card I guess. For this to work in reality, this would mean that the world was unraveled backwards like solving a problem backwards... except that I "live" it forwards.

Thus, I think the comparison between free-will, fate, and destiny do not have to be mutually exclusive. Each can co-exist in the same matter as I have described above.

This is important to me because I think this helps me understand about randomness, just something that fascinates me like infinite, duality of choice, nothing, irrational and complex numbers. Each with their own characteristics of existence yet not something fully understood (likely will never be). Unlike those, randomness does not truly exist (in my opinion).

The world is what it is. If the world went back in time, I would not even know. Just like how the "actors" in a video do not know when you rewind a video or fast forward or put into slow-motion. If randomness truly existed, the ending would change each time you replayed the video. The top card could potentially change each time you went back in time.

In a small scale, randomness is our mind's way to simplify a problem through statistics. If I flip a coin, it is 50/50 chance that it lands heads or tails. The coin landing on its side is negligible or even irrelevant because you'd just re-toss the coin anyways. Worrying about how hard you flicked the coin, how high it went, and etc., it is much easier just to say it would be one over the other.

On a grander scheme, we gamble on many things all the time in life except the odds of it failing is very, very small. "If I go at this speed, I will have better chance of hitting a green light." "I forgot my badge, what are the odds that guard happened to step away when I get there." What are the odds you get a flat tire? What are the odds that you get hit by a drunk driver? If I deal out 52 cards randomly to 52 people, each person has a 1 in 52 chance to have the ace of spades but yet someone is guaranteed to have the ace of spades.

Although life is about decreasing risk at an effective rate, there are times when we want randomness to be as "chaotic" as possible, like generating security keys, simulating a casino game, or possibly just to make things "fair" (like the lottery). How does someone go about making things random?

If the problem of randomness is about the limitations on the knowledge of the guesser, then randomizing a value is about making the environment as impossible for the guesser to "calculate" the answer at an effective rate. Because true randomness is impossible, effective rate is important to how close to true randomness the application needs to be. For example, if a weighted coin has 75% to land on head and you win 100 points each time you guess correctly, you will likely always choose heads. Even if it cost 1 point to play, you will continue to guess heads. But if I make use a "fair" coin, then you will likely choose to not play at all because the probability is that you will lose each game.

By observing all the randomness around us and trying to make as much sense as possible, I wonder if it is possible for me to guess randomly. People have a tendency to start with heads or tails. People have a set of numbers they tend to use for "random" purposes. Even for things we never would had to choose between, we still have tendencies. It could be the constant use of certain words, or constant visuals of a certain numbers, or an infinite of things that make us tick that predetermines our supposedly random choices. In other words, ultimately, if I were starving and there were two plates of food equidistant from me. Which plate would I go to first? Or will I just starve to death because I cannot make a logic choice?

Thus, at some point each of us has a moment of insanity to break out of an unsolvable problem or dilemma however small it may be. Hope that will make sense to me some time in the future.

Reference:
http://xkcd.com/221/